Have you ever taken a moment to stop and reflect on how you have gotten to where you are today? Well I did this the other day and realized just how many events in my life had to happen in order to set the stage for where I am currently. It is mind-blowing to see just how God worked out every single detail for everything to fall right where it should.
I was twelve years old when I dedicated my life to the Lord during a Sunday morning altar call. I was invited to go to Church with my Aunt and cousins that day and when the pastor asked if anyone wanted to dedicate their life to the Lord I could not get up there fast enough. I will never forget the feeling that invaded my Spirit when I confessed in front of hundreds of people that Jesus Christ was my Lord and Savior. I completely understood why they said I would be born again that day because I truly felt like a new person. I remember that Sunday, August 18th, 1995 like it was yesterday.
Some people have asked me how I could participate in an altar call at the age of twelve and there really is no solid answer. Maybe it was due to all the in-depth religious conversations my dad and I would engage in at a young age, maybe it was due to all the times my mom would agree to lift me up in her arms and read me the Footprints poem we had hanging in our hallway, or maybe it was because of all the Church invites I got from my Aunt. The only thing that truly matters is that I was born again and I have a relationship with the Lord God Himself that I cherish deeply.
From dedicating my life to the Lord I have learned several lessons throughout this journey. I have learned that when God wants your attention He will get it. He got my attention that Sunday morning and He made it very clear that I was to walk up to that altar. He wanted that promise from me; the promise that I would follow Him, trust Him, and seek Him with all my being. Going up there was the best decision I have ever made. Never be afraid that you are going to miss out on a message from God or on what God has planned for you because He will make sure His message gets delivered. I believe God wanted my attention at an early age to help me deal with things I went through at an early age and looking back I would not change one single thing.
Another lesson I have learned throughout the years is that God is always faithful in getting us through the storm. Just because I am a Christian does not make me exempt from the pain life can sometimes throw our way, however I do know that God is with me every step of the way. I learned this early on and looking back it was one of the best lessons I was ever taught. I got married when I was nineteen and soon after my husband and I wanted kids. We tried for years and when nothing happened we sought out the help of a fertility specialist. We learned that my fallopian tubes were completely and mysteriously closed. We tried procedure after procedure and never ended up with a child. We did our last round of In Vitro Fertilization in 2009 and to date that was our fourteenth infertility treatment; still resulting in negative pregnancy tests. I was in my mid twenties and in the worse shape of my life physically, spiritually, and emotionally. I never thought I would ever get over the pain and disgust I had in my own self image. God lifted me up and showed me how to love myself and my situation. I do not know if kids are in our future but I do know God is in our future and that is all that matters. I decided to dedicate my life to the Lord and with that I agreed to completely trust in Him and His plans for me. Even though that time period was hard, God was still faithful to get me through. He gave me peace in knowing His plans are going to be way bigger and better for my life then I could ever imagine. I am excited for the way things turned out because I know God is in control.
The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.” ~ Psalm 32:8
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”~ Jeremiah 29:11
The last lesson I want to share is that in order to live in your purpose you must be willing to surrender yourself to the plan God has already designed for you. As far back as I can remember I wanted to be a teacher. My bedroom was always set up as a classroom and every bit of birthday money went towards teaching supplies. I had the chalkboard, grade book, and even the overhead projector. My brother and sister were writing their full names by the age of three because they were always my students. My passion was helping people and I had such a desire to teach that I was sure I was going to become a grade school teacher one day. Little did I know God had different plans for my life.
Remember my first lesson that states when God wants your attention He will make sure He gets it? Well I got that message loud and clear in January 2013 when I was recovering from a car accident. I have always been on the go with working and going to school since I was fifteen years old. I have never slowed down because I have always “known” what I was going to do and stopped at nothing to accomplish my goal. Well when I was rear ended back in 2012 I had no option but to do nothing and wait for God to instruct my next moves. During this time period the desire of being a teacher wasn’t a desire anymore and I was seeking my purpose more and more. I felt lost but realized God was in the process of redirecting my life and putting me on the correct road to living my purpose. God began to put the right people into my life and I was reminded that you sometimes have to lose your dreams in order to fulfill your destiny. Again I reminded myself that God was in control and I started to see the big picture of where my life was headed. Gods dream for my life was way bigger than any dream I ever had for myself and each of you reading this needs to realize that this is true for you as well. Surrender to God and let him put you on the right road to living your purpose!
I encourage every single one of you to start trusting in God’s plan for your life today and understand that when you allow Him to take control you will be blown away with what He reveals to you.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. ~ Proverbs 3:5 – 6
This song is such a great reminder that we are nothing until we allow the Lord to make us and fashion us into what we were put on this earth for. Enjoy.
May God bless you always,
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